My NDE

Note: This is a follow up to NDE-the backdrop and really, a depiction of what was happening around me..you could say in two different realms -(back to back) but manifested itself here in this particular event? Honestly, I hesitated to blog this on account of the references to hell - as I'm not into "hell & damnation"..(in the sense of bopping anyone over the head)- It is what it is though..so what the hell? Ha -Thanks
 
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven— A time to give birth and a time to die;...A time to weep and a time to laugh" Eccl 1:1-4

There I was with the devil On a high hill

Overlooking that grave

Late evening approaching

And I could feel the breeze blowing through my hair

Then I turned my head

But it was my future son

We were staring down upon his fathers tomb

Visions passed from nether worlds

Looking out aghast from a bank

On into an abyss of souls like a flood

Grasping at him..helpless

Lost in an orgy, bodies intertwined, gnashing

Beyond my reach

One thing I understood he- would not be there..

Nor would he be there to care for my boys

Then I found myself alone

I could hear a rushing sound

A mighty wind

Looking up towards the sky I saw reapers gathering

From the four corners of the earth

These angels swooped down

They'd come to separate the wheat from the chaff

Placing them in bundles

That's when I looked over

*

I recognized it was He- Jesus

Walking through these earthly fields

A towering figure dressed in white

His appearance oddly- a celestial void, reduced to the earthy Raw..but undeniably prophetic

Accompanied by a few

He looked out as they passed mortality

From the left to the right
He determined..

Yet I only saw brown fields

Every pore

 Soaked up words unspoken

Though I knew it all came down

To where He'd find us standing

 *

Then, it was as if I awoke

In the middle of a dessert

Uninhabited, deserted

Utterly alone -like some ancient Roman ruins

This empty backdrop

In tones of reddish brown-

Stark against an endless blue

Then sinking down through every fiber

Heavy like lead when the spirit's left the shell

Penetrating my being- the reality of life as I knew it-

Exactly what it felt like

An unmistakable void- Without the love God

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Fast foreword- I conceived later that year to a healthy baby boy. Then approximately two years later, I gave birth to his brother. Their father, my husband passed away when he was just a mere 2 months old.