Here suspended
Hope appears to circle around
Reaching out,
Nearly within my grasp
Shapes could change
Bouncing off someone's wall
We want peace
Just can't agree on the way
Unity's costly
Calculating a delivery
Suspicion left me in an alley
Not everyone's right
But something's wrong
It's worth it to keep loving
Could see my dirty nails
Holding up the light
It's a loophole for sure
When hope circles around
We could reach out
Unity's costly..
But it's within our grasp
For One Single Impression's- Smoke 
We want to do right
Lent
It goes up in smoke
While we're
Looking for
A way out
Sand
Along the seashore
Warms our feet
Warmer still
We catch a reflection
Upside
Funnels down
We can fill it
Like a pickle jar
Keep it like an urn
Blame runs through
Our fingers like
Fine grain
We want to do right
Found a way out
Under the law
Wednesday's Ashes (was convenient)
Hardened foreheads
It's an exchange
A burden
We can't lift it
Skews our thinking
Waiting for the Government
Some clergyman
To rectify the wrongs
Comparing our self
With someone else.. Then all our rights..Forget it-It's never enoughSo..
We can fill our pickle jar
Keep it like an urn
Use it as a springboard
Blame
Runs through our fingers
Like sand
But it all Comes back to usFor in there Is hope
Only hope
Builds up-
It won't go up in smoke-Ja. 1: 25But one who looks intently at the perfect law, the law of liberty...This man will be blessed-Faith is a
Substance Of things hoped for, The evidence
Of things not seen
Heb. 11:1
For Skywatch Friday -
On the Island of Hawaii -Between Mauna Loa & Mauna Kea
Setting sun
Soft tangerine
Took the sky-
Sang- Then left a trail of colors
Over my shoulder-
I went down deep
In the river
Like a flood-
It ran through my house
And carried me out
Was waiting in the school yard
Before I'd heard the bell
Genuflected
Or learned about hell
I'd been dunked in liberalism
To the sign of the cross
Looking for faith
I had to take heed
As small fingers touched
Each blue crystal beadThey were equals-
And they baptized me
In religion
I went down deep
Where the waters blurred those masks
But I saw another river
Flowing from the dawn-
In a baptism of fire
I let it carry me along
So if you gaze into the stream
Yet only find debris-
Yes-
In the land of the free
And the home of the brave-
Remember-
There is a river- Ps. 46:4
Where faith
Is the substance..
Of things not seen- Heb. 11:1
That's where the recovery will be found-Acts 17:26 "He made from one blood every nation of men to dwell on all the surface of the earth--
having ordained times before appointed, and the bounds of their dwellings--"(Shattered Glass here)
I never actually put myself in the category of an NDE. I guess over the last couple years, after having watched a number of these (videos) with my husband...(kind of in amusement.. still, I have no doubt these things occur.. they are very real to me) that I began to think, wait a minute? While on the one hand I don't take myself too seriously, this really impacted me. Dreams had always factored in my life somehow..maybe why I had to go through this little movie..an impression needed to made in my thick little noggin? On the other, I don't base everything on experience either?
Was this an actual death or just near? I don't recall any white light or tunnel or even looking back at myself. This picturesque state, was peppered through with some real odd but hilarious recollections which I may throw in (hope credibility isn't lost)? I just can't resist humor-Background: I decided to end my pitiful life early in my 20's with my then boyfriend and father of my two boys. He was getting over the counter drugs (bad back of course) and he happened to have muscle relaxers at the time. We were fussing and fighting all the time it seemed- but besides that, I was simply lost.. except- I wanted answers. He, on the other hand was on a downward spiral.. like a tornado- taking me right along with him! You could say I was a little co-dependent? Soo, I went into the bathroom one night, lined up over a hundred muscle relaxers...(all in neat little rows), gawd..you have to wonder where that came from!...then proceeded to down them all! When I finished, I looked at him and said goodnight! I remember getting up to use the bathroom but fell over onto the floor by the night stand. I hit my head so hard I saw lights! Anyway, the last thing I remember after that (I guess he had a problem taking me to the doctors-guilt??) -was him plunking me in a tub full of water thinking it would help sober me up..no idea as to how many of those little pills I took..hell, maybe he did? Incidentally, I have to mention how unforgettable being submerged in water really was! It was like hmm...therapy, where it became a tremendous release to me somehow..one of the things that stood out?
I suppose I should mention my background in Catholicism. Though I had received a bible while growing up- we were instead encouraged to read the Catholic Missile; although we had one lying around? However, I'd only been introduced to little Bible story books here and there during my formative years with an occasional prayer book.
More importantly, I hadn't heard of the book of Revelation or much outside the law or works... Baptism as far as I knew occurred when you were an infant. The following excerpt underpins what I wrote here in (Religion, The Beginning of My Journey) - sorry, this link isn't up), anyway, because I mention this..I say this- as it was virgin territory in that I had to carve my way through..Here-"besides Catholicism, other ideologies had been integrated at some point in time -which flew in direct contrast without ever being scrutinized or challenged.. consequently, (one can become) a living conduit, inadvertently building strongholds by simply impregnating their own offspring against any inquiry through emotional paralysis and defense of the very belief systems they refused to battle. I will go so far as to suggest, it’s like a serum infused upon inception." Well, I never wrote any of this down.. in full anyway- but much of it still stands out in various slices, though it was one long continuous story. Having said that, I will post in segments so it's not too longish- for those interested: Developing...Also, I will answer any comments and love to hear your feedback-(My NDE can be found here)
I'd been piecing old photos
With journal entries
Year’s back-
My mind became clouded
As my throat tightened ..
And I thought, if only?
Just then, I'd turned into my road
While the low lying grass
Leaned into the wind
That morning,
Took our dog away...
Yet flowers rosy and clustered
Caught my eye
They swayed, above my windshield
From the end of a branch
Just like a vine further on,
The breeze had lifted-
Each petal and limb
Over that stone wall
Well now I'm sitting here
While the rains softly falling
An the cherry perfume for the bath
Keeps wafting through the room
My life's
Been slow to bloom
And this world..
It can turn you to stone-
So I'll take mine with salt
Once mingled with blood
That I may fly again too
Far above these walls
Living though dying...
2 Co 4:11
Duke it out on my window sill- It's kinda quick but amusing, just watch- And no, I didn't have anything better to do!
Meme Prompt From Crazy 8's (the Write Girl)..via September Mom
8 Things I Am Looking Forward To-
1. The avocados to ripen, the passion to bud...Dwarf Crape Myrtle & Shower trees to bloom
2. When I bite into my harvest..and it's not an edible flower?
3 When all the B.S is over?
4. Unity of the Spirit
5. My eyes to be opened
6. Wisdom..when # 5 is accomplished..
7. To die to myself (but that means death right)
8. Inspiration when my self is out of the way?
8 Things I Did Yesterday-
1. Flapped my jaws with a close friend
2. Judged accurately..you like that?
3. Read
4. Wrote
5. Blogged
6. Played Frisbee with & walked my dog
7. Remembered a couple embarrassing dreams
8. Gave my husband lip -lots of it!
8 Things I Wish I Could Do
1. Run around the Pyramids
2. Highlight my hair while thinking of something profound to write
3. Take a dive with some Dolphins in Kona
4. Chase sunsets with my camera
5. Make a difference?
6. Maybe be a little less cynical??
7. Jump in the middle of the ocean
8. Leave the earth...knowing that those I love will be ok? (as if something depends on me)
8 Shows I Watch-
1. Since I don't watch T.V...I'm not sure how that happened..but I have a guess? I'm replacing it with the following:
Video tape my dog and what ever amuses me..
2. Hulu.com some other download or rented movies with my hubby.. sometimes- if I'm not doing this?
3. Take pictues of raindrops on flowers
4. Exercise DVD's and of course follow them..ha
5. News (vid's)
6. Or drop in to visit other peoples blogs & photos
7. The dust suck up in my vacuum
8. A good concert
While I'm here
But you know we're there..
It's the present
Still it's the past
Take a picture
Fast foreword the video
Listen to an audio
Rewind..
We look out of our window
Life's in frames
We don't carry
A measuring rod,
Not near enough
To a weather vane
They're only gages, really..
Effortlessly,
Like some kind of chess board
Moving over lines, we once
Could hide behind
Turning into one road
From the other
We declined
When you've missed the fork
From the future you can see-
You lost time
When the present finds us
Out of line-
But the drama's
Merely trauma
When your past's
Just been defined-
Let's be perfectly clear- the war on free speech is spiritual!
